Little Boy

Dear Friends,
This poem was originally without a title and I found it next to a Sunday page in my diary.

"There was a little boy once,
joyful and full of life,
carried in him a million of dreams,
raised and cherished as a big green leaf.

One day he heard a knock at his door,
his heart was thumping,
'çoz it was the day he turned four.
He saw his dad standing,
empty hands were low down hanging,
and there was no box to unwrap.
He felt a sharp needle,
piercing his heart that was idle,
he felt an urge to cry, run and hide
'coz dad must have had a rough day
or why else would he forget his b'day?

Y'day he turned eleven,
all his friends came but Raven,
a beautiful teen
who went out with some Mr. Bean.
He sat all night by the fire arch,
waiting for darkness to fade in light,
morning came after night had dried his tears,
readying him for all new peers.

Time went on ticking,
One day he turned seventeen,
He's happy silent and somewhat mean.
A girl named Amber
made his heart ponder,
one day with all his courage and heart at 120
explained her the situation
only to be told that she was mistaken.
Two years past he met another Amber.
She seemed really nice and soft
and spent time in tying the knot,
making a bond that felt so strong,
but it wasn't long before he smelled betrayal.
And died his dream of betrothal with Amber.

Now he collects the pieces left apart,
takes 'em and goes to a friend,
asking her to mend it
and walks in the middle of the road,
spread his hands wide to catch some dust,
looks back and forth to find an end.


..............................

Sin Diary

Dear Friends,
I inked this piece somewhere around Christmas of year 2008 sitting on the last table at Open Hand, Varanasi.

Since the begining I've been a sinner,
So is everybody else,
but that doesn't make me a winner
Here I am at the beginning of new year,
Writing all my sins, remembering past errors.
Oh! Jesus forgive me, I stand naked before you
For this is how you made me, as a young child
I pray for forgiveness when I lost my innocence
My eyes were greedy and lust took over me
Lies were in the air to get some salt share
Oh! Jesus forgive me I stand before you naked.
Make me like a rose, fresh, red and carpet clean.

The Dream goes on...

You are stranger than the rain,
When I try to hold you in my hand,
you seep right through my fingers,
leave me longing for a drop of you.

Pouring on my wet head,
slowly rolling down my nose and
reaching to a dead end
sounds doop dub doop.

Silence is broken
by the thoughts unspoken
Your 'Yes', your 'No'
cause pain and more devotion.

I see a rainbow but it's black and white
waiting for you to rain again
bring the colors and make it right
I don't want red, blue, green
I want you to be with me... again.

Colors

I don't know how this world is gonna end,
but I know life is death without you.
It seems so easy to forget you,
but if I try I end up missing you even more.

The life is blue, the life is green
if you are in, I feel eighteen.
The life is...................again.

Everyday when I wake up,
I find you sleeping next to me.
I forget to add sugar in the coffee,
because you have sweetened me forever.

The life is blue, the life is green
if you are in, I feel eighteen.
The life is...................again.

If one day this dream comes true,
when I come home and you make me supper,
when we talk in love and we sleep in chair,
when we dream together we see only each other.

Oh..
The life is blue, the life is green
if you are in, I feel eighteen.
The life is...................again.

The Blanket

When the darkness surrounds you,

I'll burn like a candle.
When no one around to hug you,
I'll wrap my arms around.
When troubles knock at your door,
I'll rise up to answer.
When you find yourself alone,
I'll be there like reflection.
When all voices become noises,
I'll sing music to your ears.
And if you don't want me to be there,
I'll hide behind you.
Because I love you, yes I love you.
I can never go away, even if I want to.

When you feel so tied with the wires of life,
I'll cut the strings and follow.
When colors are bright no more,
I'll repaint it all again.
When you need cold breeze,
I'll put some ice in the sea.
When God seems to be little angry with you,
I'll stand in the way between Him and you.
When the angels come to take you to heaven,
I'll give them wrong address.
Because I love you, yes I love you,
I can never go away, even if I want to.

Promise

Like a diamond I remember,
when I held my mom's finger,
felt safe from every danger,
taste of hot milk with cashew & ginger,
melodious lullabies & her touch so tender.

She's a coin that shines brighter than silver,
Made me so rich, a joint manoeuvre.
Not like mathematics,
but my first word rather,
In my heart you will stay forever.

I am thankful to my creator,
sewing me with such a narrator,
a mentor, a sculptor & a traitor,
who I owe my life for today & later.

Beats

I count time with the beats of your heart,
You are the end of endless,
of everything else you are the start.
I want to shine in your brilliance,
I connect to you so even death can't depart,
Till the end to be with you is my pursuverance.

I have seen red roses,
so sweet is your smile,
reddr in cold & in anger is your noses.
Holding your hand I wanna walk another mile,
till I breathe and my eyes closes.

Forgive me if I were too much,
For God gave me no brain but a heart of same size.
You makes me a child again,
remind me of my childhood dreams & lullabys,
my favourite toys & injury pain.
Be my milkshake, icecream & my beauty queen.